malibudabarbie

I wish she could see through my eyes and into my soul, because there lies the truth. I wish she could really see the person I really am instead of the person I used to be.   I wish she could see me, I really do, see me sit on the side of my bed with a cigarette held in a shaky hand , smoke blowing up a face full of running tears, with my mind in shambles over " what have I done". I wish she could see how everytime I close my eyes I see her face and it makes me want to die. I see her brown eyes that at one time used to melt my heart now leaves it cold and frosted. I wish she knew that.    I am always fighting for the real me. I wish she k